December has arrived and with it the end of the year. I can't believe it's already over, with all the things that have happened, I'm surprised I've made it this far. Today being the last month of the year I wanted to make a review of everything that I have been going through during these 12 months.
To review the progress, I went through all my blogs and I can't lie that it moved me a bit. One of the things I didn't expect was the ease of connecting with the Taro of each date. I connect and internalize it as if I were traveling back in time. When I did, three thoughts came to me fundamentally.
How time passed
I talked about it a little last month, but I am surprised how time has passed. In general, when you grow up you are afraid of the passing of time, how fast it is. Today I have a problem, because on the one hand I feel that from January we passed to December, and on the other hand I feel that each month lasted a year.
I experienced so many things this year, for better and for worse. I did a lot of new things and I feel like I grew like never before, and it amazes me how all this was achieved in just 12 months.
The advices
As I wrote each blog I wanted to speak to a younger, less experienced Taro, as a way of giving him advice to help him along the road to where he was. But what struck me was that they seemed to be addressed not only to a Taro of the past but one of the future. All the advice and words of encouragement that I was leaving during the year seemed to be many Taros wanting to make me grow, as if they knew that during all this journey things were going to be complicated and obstacles were going to appear. I find it very tender and nice to listen and connect with a Taro excited and full of energy for the future.
How proud I am
To tell you the truth, I'm a little scared with how fast these months went by and, I feel that I didn't make as much progress as I should have. But at the same time I am surprised and proud of all the progress. I love how in June I was so hopeful and happy to be so close to publishing the demo; I love how in February and March I was learning how to make art and I see all the step by step and progress I made; I love how panicked I was in May when I felt the dates were getting shorter and I didn't have a fight.
I think one of the things I like most about my posts is how I connect with the Taro who wrote them. I can transport myself to those dates and feel the joys, nerves and fears I had back then, and partly give more magnitude to the things I live now.
Summary
Honestly, I am amused by the amount of things that happened during these months. If I had to summarize it: the first 3 months are crisis, the 4th is internal problems, the 5th is the combat crisis, the 6th is the launch, the 7th is the results, the 8th is the creation of identity, the 9th is the breaking point, the 10th is the new beginning and the 11th is looking back. I feel that this year was so busy compared to the previous ones that I am glad to have gone through so many things and gained so much experience.
During the year I learned a lot of things: marketing, optimization, art, animations. But not only professional, it was also the year I started: dancing, piano, screenwriting, cooking. Internally, I lived through my dog's cancer until she died and one of my relatives almost died in a horrible situation. Repeatedly I felt that I could not do it anymore and I proved to myself that I can do it, that I am capable. That is why I want to leave a record for the Taro of the future to review all the things he lived this year and to connect with the past: you are prepared and you are capable.
Next month will be a year since I started this new life, and I want to come back with all the energy as I did last year. In turn, I hope to read this post again in the future and connect in the same way as with the previous ones.
Thank you for joining me during this year. I wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
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